Please you need to understand that… I cant stand hurting you,. I need to learn to move on you have so much ahead of you.. I told you about what i did that day ,because you have a bright future ahead of you and i promised myself i will not get in your way no matter how much it hurted me.this was a secret that i never told anyone not even people that i trust almost everything with . I could never man up myself and tell you this in person and im sorry. Please live your life the way you planned. Go to college like you promised yourself, help the people that you want to help in your life. Theres no need for you to worry anymore about me..Just know that i will always be there to support you at whatever you do you may not see it but i just want to see you happy and i dont think i can do that for you in the future….No matter what i do just know that ill always be there with you…So i want you to promise me one thing and one thing only, please live your dreams no matter what,never let anything or anyone hold you back and focus on your goals, i just cant stand to hold you back anymore…im sorry i could never tell you this in person i just cant stand myself seeing you hurt, but ill promise something back..Ill take punishment for everything i ever did for you and ill try to make things right.. You just have to wait and plz dont cry when i go back up and hit that mic let me do that for you. i cant change the past but i can mend the future..
You always forgave me (even though i didnt deserve it) ill live by that line you gave me in a deck of card..i know you wont forgive me today or ever and i understand why..But i cant say i fully regret it.. I had to live my goals and i knew damn well the risks i was doing..(im sorry for gambling with poetry)
ill never forget everything we did, but i think this time will be the last time